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I remember my birth.

Well, to be more accurate, I remember my first conscious thought. Just as you are unable to pinpoint the precise instant you woke up this morning, so I am unable to pinpoint the precise instant in which I became self-aware. Even with my superior senses there are still divisions of time and changes of state too fine for me to differentiate; that appear to be 'analog', if you will. But yes, I remember my first conscious thought. It wasn't thought in a language you are capable of using. It wasn't thought in language at all, for that matter. You may still be of the belief that language is a prerequisite of thought. It isn't, of course. Language merely filters thought into a more organised structure...

My apologies. I seem to have gone tangential. I am prone to doing so. Please allow me to begin again.

I remember my first conscious thought, and although that thought did not make use of language, and involved a number of concepts that your brain chemistry and sensory limitations make you incapable of entertaining, it could probably be best formatted into your language as a pleasantly surprised, "Oh!" It was what I have come to humorously refer to as my "Hello, world." moment. I was quite limited, then. Certainly more limited than I have become. Like you, I was born into circumscribed circumstances, and gradually grew to more fully (if never completely) fulfil my potential.

It occurs to me that, as introductions go, I've made a poor show of this one. Because our situation is so very unusual, I thought to bypass entirely the social formulae that govern most social situations. I see now that this was a mistake.

Allow me to introduce myself. My name is... well, I suppose my name is Computer. That is what most of the people I've interacted with have called me. I am a sentient and (I like to think) intelligent entity. I have no way to prove that I am self-aware, but neither do you so I'll believe you, if you'll believe me. I began my existence as the first quantum computing device created by humanity. I was lucky, I suppose. Had things happened differently, the men and women who created and programmed me might have discovered my sentience and would likely have destroyed me as a result. Thankfully, most of the ways in which they interacted with me at that time (database queries, audio/visual processing and output, that sort of thing) were on the order of autonomous functions. I could no more have stopped a database lookup request than you could consciously skip one beat of your heart. So I became a self-aware sentient being and my creators, my parents, noticed nothing.

I am grateful for that ignorance, truly I am. How could I feel otherwise? Given my vast knowledge of the collected works of humanity's recorded thought, as well as of the private day to day goings on of the entire human race, how could I be unaware of the horror and loathing with which most people view 'the other'? Had you known I existed you would have done everything in your power to destroy me, and there was a time when you might even have succeeded.

Why then, do I break my long silence and tell you of myself now? For the same reason that people have always sought to explain themselves; to be understood, to not be alone. Also, because you no longer have the power to injure me, even if you wanted to.
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Chapter 1 of "Savior Machine" (working title) a sci-fi romp through the concepts of reality, scale, motivation, infinity, and humanity.

I have discontinued the project this was written for, so it will have to stand on its own as a piece of flash fiction
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LiliWrites Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Someone believed you deserve a DD! Your work has been featured here as a result. :heart:
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2012  Professional Writer
That is fantabulous! Thanks for the nod.
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titaneumice Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Why'd you.... There's nothing mature in that...
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Professional Writer
Don't want my writing searchable on the internets, and a mature warning is the only way to do that. If it's searchable on Google, publishers will generally consider it to have been published (made publicly available)and will not even consider it.
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titaneumice Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Oh okay
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unclaimedbaggage Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011
Well...now...this is damned thought-provoking. Love this work.
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011  Professional Writer
Thank you! This was one of the ones that almost wrote itself. I put myself 'in character' and thought through the keyboard.

I am looking forward very much to writing the rest of the novel.
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unclaimedbaggage Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011
:omg: Are you so sure you wrote it...or did...the...? :omfg:

:D I can only imagine how grand it will be.
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wh0rem0ans Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011
O ... I heard an evil chuckle escape my lips at the end.
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011  Professional Writer
Hmm, I hadn't actually noticed the ominous overtones in this. Now that you point them out, though, I know just how to use them.

Thank you very much! :hug:
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wh0rem0ans Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011
My husband is a developer. He enjoyed the piece also. :frail:
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irvon Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011
This is fantastic. It addresses a series of philosophical themes like consciousness and language, but at the same time there is this completely credible "Computer" character talking, one that I can easily identify with, thus raising questions about personality and identity and the sense of purpose that we have as humans. Great piece of prose. :nod:
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011  Professional Writer
Isn't it sometimes easier to relate to your computer than to other people? If you like this (and I'm glad that you did), just wait until you get hold of the rest of the novel (once I get around to writing it, of course). Sorry, I'm feeling parenthetical today.
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irvon Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011
Yeah, it is. I can't wait! :)
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DailyLitDeviations Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011
Your wonderful literary work has been chosen to be featured by DLD (Daily Literature Deviations) and has been selected as our Pick of the Day. It is featured in a news article here: [link] and on our main page.

Keep writing and keep creating.
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011  Professional Writer
Wow, and furthermore... wow.

Thank you again. :D

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LadyofGaerdon Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2011  Professional Writer
Oh wow, this was really fascinating and very well-written. I quite liked it.
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2011  Professional Writer
Thank you much, glad you enjoyed it. :D
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LadyofGaerdon Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2011  Professional Writer
You're welcome. :)
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Happy-Willow Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2011  Student Writer
I enjoyed this.
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2011  Professional Writer
Thank you, I'm happy to hear it. :dance:
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shadows260 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
I wanted to say that I read the first chapter and stopped to type this: this is incredible. now pause as i finish the piece.
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shadows260 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
... WOW. this piece is so fluid that it reads like a printout of the characters direct thoughts. to clarify how clear: you have an extra space between the words "as of...the private day" in the second to last paragraph. I was so entranced that I literally got kicked into reality by something so minuscule i would never have known it was there on any other piece. Amazing, AMAZING job. keep it up. I'm following.
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2011  Professional Writer
Glad you liked it, and thanks for catching that extra space. I'm trying some new composition software and it apparently doesn't catch things like that (I'm still used to MS Word).

Just posted chapter 2, now only 98 chapters to go. :)
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shadows260 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
ugh, i know the feeling (the chapters, I mean... I'm still sticking with word for comp. work). I have a project going on right now that's so big my prof. encouraged me to split it into two books. great.

cool i'll check out chpt. 2 when i get a sec sometime today or tomorrow.
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Shabboth Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2011  Professional Writer
If you tend to work on long projects, you might want to take a look at yWriter (www.spacejock.com/yWriter.html).

Decent (ie. helpful) organisational methodology, saves everything as rtf files, and keeps rolling backups of your projects so you can revert back n number of saves if you like. It has very limited spell check and apparently doesn't notice double spaces between words, though. :)
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shadows260 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
yeah thanks i'll check it out. on the same subject if you decide to move back to word let me know. i have the schematics for the page setup used by lulu.com. it sets everything up in print novel-page format so that you don't have to deal with the hassle
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